Where are you

Where are you
When I need you
Where are you
While I am waiting for you

I feel empty inside
While the sadness gets to me
I try to put it on the side
But it comes back haunting me

All those times looking at the horizon
Thinking that you will come
But never showed up for any reason
I thought that I did something wrong

swallowing my tears
That had dry over the years
Hiding my true feelings
To protect me from carrying

Still today I am waiting
As my life hit difficulties
For you to come visiting
While I have to fight daily

A support that I needed then
And hoping to get it today
But obviously I am wrong again
You will never change, even for a day

Why am I upset after all this time?
Were you at a moment next to me?
Or was I wasting my time?
Too afraid that you will not miss me

I hope my son will never be sad
As I made the impossible to be there
At the important moments, even bad
I make it and he knows that I am there.

04.12.2023