Black thought night

Another difficult night
But why is that?
Is it because of my sickness
That seems to getting worth

Today I got blind suddenly
Yesterday I got dizzy
Sometime I feel tired easily
And my hands are shaking

Is it the past year to blame
Where I try to be strong
And I bury all my feelings
For them to feel safe somehow

Did I jeopardize my health
And bring my end closer
Even with the help I got
To stabilize my mind
The body didn't agreed

May I be able to enjoy
The growing of my kid
To see him a man
And having some success

It is time to take it easy
And try to slow the process
Maybe is not too late
And I can win some year's
Around my love ones

I need to accept my faith
And the decision I made
Good or wrong will decide
If I was on the right way

Maybe they are still hope
That the beauty of love
Will erased the bad behaviour
And the light will come
Sending the darkness
Where he belongs
As far as possible from me.

07.08.2024